What do you do??

*This is a blog of mine from March 18th.*

What do you do when you are told that there is a 94-96% chance that your baby will die at birth?

This is my reality. This is extremely difficult to even write but, I don't want to leave you guys wandering how my appt. went and so on. I really don't know what to say right at this moment. All I do know is that it is a really serious situation. I had my routine ultrasound last Friday and they noticed that I had really low amniotic fluid. So, I was scheduled for an appt. with a high risk dr. for an ultrasound on Tuesday. At this appt. they discovered that I had very little amniotic fluid. They don't know what caused this. Everything that would cause this was normal. The baby is developing normally. The problem is that if there is no fluid or very little the lungs will not develop therefore the baby will most likely not survive long after birth. People ask me if it would be easier for me to terminate my pregnancy now (which is an option). For me it would be no. Either way I am going to be devastated to lose my child. I feel like I have to carry this child and give it every chance to live. Every chance for God to provide a miracle and possibley give life to this baby. If I terminated now I would always wander what the end result would have been. So, I choose to carry this baby full term and hope that God heals my baby and gives he/she life. That he/she will be the 4-6%. That my baby will live.

I ask all of you to pray for my baby. Pray that God provides a miracle for this baby.

I love you all and am incredibily thankful for all of you.